Arrows through the Heart

January 9, 2016 at 09:55 pm

Rise, another day of life to enjoy and be thankful for. That sun shining through the clouds and trees. Those owls perched on the library looking like fluffy cats. A circle of students praying. Another day, another beautiful walk to class.

Classes continue — all I've been glad to have taken. Homework and projects coming and going. Never any time without something to do, to learn — the school life, or maybe just life. Each of the last few quarters wondering how I was going to survive. Gradually learning how to manage time, how to choose what I value.

Do I want to continue this for 5 years in grad school? Yes, in fact, I do. I'm busy, but I love it. I get to the end of a day still happy to be working away. So much diversity. I like math. I like coding. I like writing. I like music, art, religion, psychology, philosophy. Thanks, God, for all these cool things.

"God took careful aim and shot his arrows straight through my heart." ~ Lamentations 3:12-13 CEV

His life, not quite so awesome. How can I relate to that? The lamenter continues:

"Then I remember something that fills me with hope. The Lord's kindness never fails! . . . Deep in my heart I say, 'The Lord is all I need; I can depend on him!'" ~ Lamentations 3:21-24

Nice. Faith in God no matter the circumstances. But what about the people who aren't at this point? How do you relate to those who have strong faith, if you don't? Or, to those who don't have strong faith, if you do? How do you relate to people whose lives are going nothing like yours?

Or, how do you make a person feel valued when what they say makes no sense from your perspective? How do you value a person if their decisions seem bizarre or wrong? How do you value a person regardless of age, appearance, and abilities? How do you value those who purposefully hurt you? And, there's lots of people in the world. If you "value" these people, does it even matter if they never see any indication that you do? But, showing that you value every single person on earth, or even just everyone you run into, is slightly overwhelming.

Yet, God did. Is that the gospel? He did it because he values us. Because he did it, he can relate to us. Maybe I can remember that, share that, live because of that.